FREE

I seen the “love of my life today” and realized HE AINT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE! I was blind before but now I see. I can’t make someone want me and his lack of desire for me turns me off. Oh how I no longer care. I have much more to offer than the eye for tells. I am a great catch and if he cannot see that then he is missing out. I am kind of glad that he did not attempt to “sweet talk” me. I am also glad he did not come knocking on my door because my friend is sleeping on the couch. He is missing out on something grand. I know there is another man out there that can appreciate my value. I have NO FOOD in my house and not a dime in my pocket. How can he provide for me when he is as broke as I? If I am with a man at this time he would have to take care of me due to the lack of care I can take of myself at the moment. When I am financially stable I will not need a man for anything but at this moment I can do bad by myself. He doesn’t have enough money for me anyway. What’s funny is I didn’t even care. As a woman I was willing to accept his flaws. I was also willing to be the bread maker and cook, clean and make his every desire come true. It is crazy how us as women are more than able to do all these things for our men but they cannot even do ONE THING. They cannot settle down. I have not met one man that hasn’t cheated. I also know that the men that are willing to take care of me are Liars and cheaters. You can never have it all. You can find a man that can give you a worry-free lifestyle but you cannot be his only one. Or you can have a loving, caring man that does not cheat but he is a broke man with no ambition. I know anything in life is possible so it shouldn’t be too far fetched to find a man with both qualities or is it? Another lonely night! I can have a man now but I am too choosy. I want the whole package or nothing at all. How can I be so choosy when I myself am not perfect? With that being said I try pretty hard to be. In the end it does not matter. I was born alone and shall die alone. In the same breath I want an extraordinary life and half of it is gone. I have struggled 95 percent of my life and now it is time for me too be free. Free from the overbearing emotion of love, free from drama and worry-free. It would be nice to settle down but as of now I think my calling is LIFE. I am beautiful with no kids I should be having the time of my life. No more thoughts of settling down until I am 35. By then I shall be successful and content. Until then I am SINGLE IN THE CITY!