On another
note I had a great day today. I cooked, cleaned and smoked. I thought about
what I need to do in order to change my life. What shall I do? I am convinced
that writing a blog will change everything and I will be able to make a career
with my passion but so far it does not look too promising. I am in debt to the ceiling and have no idea
how I am going to get out of it. Yes I am unemployed but that’s due to the fact
that my scumbag manager decided to fire me due to her negligence.
Now I am
sitting here with a cigarette and glass of vodka pondering.
I had to have a drink after I seen my ex boyfriend happy in
love with another woman not to my liking. Not to be vain but I am what you call
pretty. That bitch is fat and ugly. Not that I have anything against fat women.
I am not the skinniest but when you are plus size you have to work extra hard
to maintain your image. You should dress nice, have hair, nails and eyebrows
done and your face should be flawless. That’s just my opinion.
My ex was
schizophrenic. He treated me like I was nothing. When I was with him I lost
myself. I lost my dreams, ambitions, and heart. I am loving the single life
now. We been broken up for a while now and I am so over him. I am so over him
putting his finger in me after we had sex to make sure there were no seamen in
there. I’m so over him thinking I took his personality traits. I’m so over him
hearing voices telling him I was cheating. I’m so over him not allowing me to
be happy.
Single life
does get lonely but at least I have freedom. The man I am interested in now is
sooo not interesting. Lol. I have many men for different needs. I do not have
sex with all of them. One man I have is my old head. He is whom I fuck. He makes me come all over his big BLACK dick.
I have a white boy to take care of my finances. Right now we aren’t speaking
due to the fact that his girlfriend is a maniac and will beat him up and kick
him out if he talks to me. #White people problems. I have a young bio to use
for weed.
I want my
midnight. The one I was telling you about yesterday. I want him bad. I would
leave everyone alone for him. Oh well love is for the birds. I will make sure I
get over it by the time I go to sleep. Tomorrow will be a better day. Hopefully
I can focus on writing. Usually my writing speaks for itself but today it
really is horrible. Please continue to read everyday. I assure you it will get
more interesting.
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